Bitter Sweet Symphony

While waiting for my anime to load, i've came to do some updates..

Hmm.. been working since thurs.. all i can say is that i'm tired!! My first time to work at jazz by the beach.. it was kinda fun.. but was very tiring as i had to reach cool deck at 8.45 am which is earlier than anybody else!!! went to MOS after that.. the cover charge is ex.. the drinks are also ex.. no more this type of club for me anymore.. Coz it wasn't really fun.. only can dance dance dance and not drink drink drink.. very bored!! I rather spent the money at Balcony Bar.. haha.

Finally i can rest tml and then wrked for another 3 days... rest again on fri.. but still thinking whether to work oph on sat and sun.. hmm.. it is like no longer fun to work in oph.. v sian.. i missed those time that all of us had spent in oph.. haix.. but everything wont be the same anymore..

Lesser and lesser staff are working at oscar nw.. it is terribly short of staff.. and all i can say is that it is not my managers are stressed.. it is only my supervisor is stressed with the staff strength.. i think she is v poor thing.. staff not happy with the management.. they dun voice out.. all they do is quit.. and my supervisor is like in btwn the staff and the management.. On my part as a staff.. i cant do much.. i can only work as much as possible.. work whenever i can.. actually i can work everyday if i wan.. but i need to rest.. hahaha.. i am like getting older.. no longer like last time.. no problem with working everyday.. but right now i cant.. i need to rest.. i think my health is deteriorating.. getting weaker.. eyebag getting heavier.. headaches are occuring more often now.. this is bad..

I am still waiting for my letter of appointment.. aaaahhhh.. i wish the HR would call me asap.. so that i can secure this job.. at least i wont be hanging on the air now dunno whether i should look for another job.. or should i wait for the HR to call me.. aaahhhh..

Hmm.. Although it is a little sad that everyone is busy with their own things and there is so little time spent for catching up.. it still good to see that everyone is doing well now and all are very happy. Recently, it seems that i've understand why some things can't last forever.. as long as time exist, nothing will not change, everything will be different as the time past. This is also the reason why memories exist, isn't it? Memories are beautiful when you want them to be beautiful, so i guess it is up to me whether i want those memories to be beautiful anot. Now thinking back, i've made those memories not a beautiful one and sometimes i wanted so much to make up for what i've did and for being so inappreciative but i guess it is really impossible for make up for what i've did because those memories are already not beautiful anymore. No matter how much effort i've put in to make up for the past misdeeds, it is already considered useless. All i can do now is to create beautiful memories, but the question to myself is, how can i do it if i'm still dwelling on the past? I just wonder..

Sometimes, i feel that i'm just a human wondering around this world without a soul.......

Monday, April 28, 2008

GD NEWS!! I'VE GOT THE JOB AT HILANDAS!! I'm so happy.. gt a fulltime job finally and it is smth related to wat i've study!! wee~ Pay is not bad and most likely i will work in hillview area.. which is near my place! hahaha.

Should be starting work in june.. but this also means that my trip to hk will need to be postpone.. coz it is not nice to take leave when u are on probation period. But maybe this postpone is also good.. coz like that then ling and bee can join us.. and we can fulfil our original plan! hehe

Right now.. i'll need to work hard in oscar and oph and maybe suntec!! coz like that then i can earn money for ling's bdae.. haha.

Wednesday, April 23, 2008

21/4/08 8:25p.m
Went to Hilandas for interview with lijun.. hmm.. the interview is more like a casual talk rather than interview.. hopefully i'll get this job.. and im sure that lijun will get this job.. so i shall congrats her on my blog first. wahaha.

I saw the giorgio armani phone ytd at vivo!! ahhh.. it is so nice.. i like it and i want it!! The design is simple and yet it gave u a elegant feeling. i think it is a classy phone.. omg.. i'm so loving it and the thing i like most about this phone is the full touch screen!! I always wanted a touch screen phone.. but this armani phone cost 1000+ with plan.. aahhhh.. for the sake of this phone.. i shall save!!! whether i'll buy it anot.. it will be another thing but the first is to save up for this phone!!

21/4/08 1:00a.m
Wrked for these 2 days.. wrk was ok but tiring coz i had insomnia for past 2 nights.. slept less than 10 hours for 2 days.. OMG.. and i nearly overslept on bus today.. haha.. Work is fine but doing opening at cool deck for 2 days straight was definitely tiring!!!

Chatted with mum just now.. haix.. family problems.. sian.. Really very irritated by their mindset and the way they do the things.. Can't stand it.. I really wish that i have the ability to solve all these fucking irritating problems.. but i can't w/o a fulltime job.. coz it means that i do not have the financial ability to solve the problems.

I wanna live my life the way i want it to be.. i really wan.. i dun wan to see my parents still wrking when they are getting older.. i wanna have the ability to let them lead a comfortable live when they are old.. i need a job and money to afford the lifestyle i wan..

Monday, April 21, 2008

It is 4:48 in the morning.. a cooling and rainy morning.. but i couldn't get into sleep.

Why? Maybe it is because i'm a little stressed up all of a sudden. This could be due to i'm now still working part time and had not get myself a fulltime job. Maybe it is time for me to accept job that huihui found for me.. maybe it is really time that i start to send resumes to companies.. hmm.. usually.. im stress and i don't know why. But this time round.. i'm stress and i know the reason. I think maybe it is time for me to do something about it.

I know it very well that i can't afford to slack around but it seems to me that i can't really stop myself from slacking. *Slacking doesn't mean i'm not working.. it means that i'm not working everyday* I want to go back to school!!! I want to continue studying!! I really wished that my parents are able to afford to let me continue in U.. so i won't be bothering myself about finding a fulltime job. But i guess this is part and parcel of life.. it is not always a smooth journey in life.. and i guess i began to met obstacles in my life now and i just has to accept and overcome it.

I hate it when my parents are pushing me to get a fulltime job.. i really hate it. I really wish to take my time.. but i know it very well that i don't have much time left...

18th april 2008, 12:41am

Been so free recently.. haha.. tt's why i can blog almost everyday.. wahaha. Went to Carnivore at vivo for dinner today.. hmm.. the food there is not bad, but didn't eat much.. i'm nt a meat eater.. got full v easily with all the meat.. haha.. and the dessert is nice.. i like the banana!! wahaha. But i still think that going there with a group of friends will be more fun!! wahaha. Save save save.. but im really spending more money!! haha.. i just realised that if i had spent lesser.. by now.. i could have bought ling's bdae present already!! omg.. i've spent so much already.. this is bad. I should really start to save save save!! If not, i will not have enough to buy bdae present and go travelling le.. hmm.. from tml onwards.. i should start to take bus and train.. no more cabs for me!! (unless those can be claimed) :( So i must really work work work.. if nt i'll have to look for jobs already!! i need money money money!

Friday, April 18, 2008

Met up with poly classmates ytd for a early mini celebration of lijun's bdae. Dinner at sushi tei and then off to Balcony bar for chilling session. It was kinda fun to meet up with them as we hadn't been meeting up after the last exams.

Thinking back, i've been drinking once a week for past few weeks already.. this is so nt my lifestyle.. haha.. but its ok.. im loving it! Wahahaha. Drink Drink Drink.. lol.

According to the previous entry, i wanted to cut down my expenses but.. i guess it is like impossible.. im spending more and more money!!! aaaaahhhh.. this is bad!!! how am i gonna save up!!!! omg!!!!!! this is bad bad bad!!!

Hmm.. still no news frm united premas about the job at town council.. hmm.. i wonder if i'd get this job.. haiz..

Wednesday, April 16, 2008

Was reading my previous blog entries just now. Haha.. so much of memorable moments.. happy or sad.. all of them came into my mind. I think my language is getting from bad to worse.. haix.. i hope it will improve.. haha. Reading those entries, made me recalled a lot of things that had happened last time. I almost forgot that weiling was once my'new found fren', almost forgot that i actually wanted to '找回以前的笑声', so many things that had happened.. and i actually almost forget what had happened.

Right now, i can't find words to describe what i am feeling.. but looking back.. i do have great friends around me, don't i? Thanks ppl, u shld noe who u are.

Treasure those who are important to u before u lose them, before everything is too late. I just wanna say.. I'll always be there for u.. always..

Monday, April 14, 2008

I'M SICK!!! Sorethroat and flu got better but the coughing worsened after drinking tt night.. hmm.. and im tired!! Nt enough slp!! but i shall not complain about not having enough sleep, coz i noe there is still ppl who had lesser slp than me. wahaha.

But im still tired, coz today did opening at cool deck. hmm.. it is getting more tedious to do opening at cool deck coz there are more chairs and tables to arrange.. and as usual, the most hateful thing is the shutter!!! Always had a hard time to open the shutters. I wonder how am i gng to survive this coming sat and sun coz im opening cool deck again!!! So i shall have enough rest at hm frm mon to fri!!!

Im too tired to think wat am i gng to update the blog.. shall update when i can remember what i shld update. haha.

Sunday, April 13, 2008

Boohoohoo~ I'm SICK!! Damn.. sorethroat, fever, cough and flu. Think i have not been resting well, that's why i fell sick.

Suppose to go drink tonight, was actually v excited to go.. but because all either nv reply or nt confirm, make me feel damn low about going drinking. But we are still going to drink. Right now, mood nt v gd.. dunno why. hopefully later will be fun.

Btw, i went to town council for interview in the morning just now. It was ok i think.. but i felt nervous. Hopefully i can get this job. hmm..

Friday, April 11, 2008

A new year, a new start, therefore i need a new blogskin!

It has been quite long since i've blogged. Too busy with too many things. Having the holidays now, and soon im gonna step on a journey that never ends! Right now, im kinda lost, no idea whether when i should start looking for a full time job and i seems to be very busy with my part time jobs. STRESSED!

Anyways, i'm backed from malaysia. Parents, uncles, aunties and cousins decided to take up grandpa's and uncle's bones and put it in the temple. Though it is gonna be easier for us when we go back for ching ming, but there will be lesser and lesser family gathering as my cousins in KL wont be back for ching ming already, for my uncle's bones will be put in KL. Haix.. as the time past, so much had changed. Mahjong in Malaysia with my aunties.. got no idea what got into me, seems like the tiles know me better than i know them.

Recently, i have a new hobby and that is DRINKING!! Though im not one who is gd at drinking but i've been having the urge to drink. There is always someone i wanted to drink with, but the chances for us to go drinking together seems v low. But still i enjoyed the company of oscar peeps and oph peeps when we drink together.

Monday, April 07, 2008