woah.. been busy these few days.. been very very busy with work.. haha.. afterall its all about money money money!!

It was xmas ytd! MERRY XMAS TO EVERYONE! Stayed overnight in oph in the eve and celebrated with everyone for Xmas. Thanks huiwen, sze yin and yen yin for the havainas and necklace. Thanks Ling for the psp game. and thanks yan shan for the cookies.

It is the first xmas spent without u, though i feel a little sad, but i did enjoy myself with the oph peeps, i hope u enjoyed urself too.

To you:

Actually, i wun mind if u just comment in my blog, but in a way, im glad that u din. haha.. i guess its all about respecting each other in blogging. Read ur blog again, and yes i agree with wat u said. Having a bf is one thing and having a gd fren is another. I will not say that u are greedy, coz if im the one in ur position, i would wan both too. And im glad that u noe that she treasures u and u are definitely impt to her. Wat i meant in the previous entry is nt asking u to give up or wat, but i would wan u to understand that sometimes take things more easily would be a better way out. There's definitely ups and downs in a r/s, but i believe it is up to one to control the numbers of ups and downs in this r/s. I shall not say anymore, coz i noe that u understand and i noe that u have confidence in her and this friendship. No matter how much both of u went thru, as long as u think its worthwhile, no one can break the bond between the both of u. I hope all the best for u and this friendship. :)

Din have much time to blogged in the afternoon today.. so i shall continue nw..

Seems like a lot of things had happened since sch terms starts.. things around me are changing, ppl around me is changing.. basically everything is changing and i'm changing too. I hope this change in me is good, i guess im happier nw and i feel that i have more friends now, though sometimes, i still miss going out with u, hanging around in jp with u, movies with u.. and so many things tat i missed doing with u. Things had changed so much that i dun even dare to ask u out in the v last min, so afraid that u might just say that u dun wan or u cannot make it. (Maybe i jus din get used to getting turned dwn by u) So i would rather not ask u out. I do not noe whether things are better this way nw or it is better last time, but for one thing that i noe for sure, things will definitely be better if we are still as close as last time with i am who i am today. Sounds like i regretted with my own decision, maybe i am, but i noe wat is the best for me right now. Think you are more carefree now and u seems to be happier.

There are more bad things happened as compared to good things.. i guess, this end of year is a bad period huh? It is like there are so many quarrels, so many misunderstandings and many many more. But i think all these are unavoidable. Maybe we shld all learn to understanding in order to cut down all these quarrels and misunderstanding.

i have read your blog, though i noe it is nt nice of me to write in my blog and i noe u din ask for my opinion, but i really want to tell u this. I nv had a chance to talk to u about this, coz i din noe how to say all these to you and i think that i am not in a position to tell you and i am afraid that i say someting wrong and makes things worse. Though i do not know what happened between both of you, but i think that it is quite obvious that someone else is more impt to her than u. I think you shldn't keep hanging on like this anymore, i think it is not worth for you to make urself so depressed, so many times that you break down because of this. I am not saying that this friendship is nt worth ur tears, but if you think that wat she is giving u are all lies, and it seems like she nv keep to her words to you then i think there isn't a need for u to get so attached to the things she says to u. Coz it is like, u break down, then somethings she said to u, u take it seriously and it seems to you that there is a hope for this friendship, then after awhile, u feel that she nv keep to her words, and u feel like giving up. I understand the situation u are in, and i think im nt fit to tell u all these coz i was once like this too. All i can say to u is that being nt so stubborn will be a better way out.. coz no matter wat, u still have ur bf by ur side. Think in a way that this is the way that they treat friends, we may think tat they dun care, think that we are nt impt to them, but maybe we are, just that they dun treat impt ppl the same way as we are. No matter how impt they are to us, we will nv be as impt to them as they are to us.