Wow! Its been a week since i've last blog.. hahaha.

Woah.. its been a tiring week.. ITP report needs to be submitted.. tutorials needs to be done.. Presntations needs to be prepared.. haix.. plus.. i'm working the whole day during weekends.. WHERE TO FIND TIME! All i can say is that i'm lucky to have my group members that are undersanding and efficient. To hui and zihui, im sorry eh.. been busy working and i din contribute to the RMT presentation. I'll try my best to contribute as much as i can.. ok?

From fri onwards, i've been reaching hm at around 3am.. then next day must wake up early for work on sat and rush thru report on sun.. omg.. NOT ENOUGH SLEEP! I think i've over tired my body..falling sick soon.. haix.. but i cant fall sick! Sick means cannot go work.. no work means no money! aaaaahhhhhhhh.. no money means i cant save up for HK trip! nonono.. i must be strong.. i cant fall sick!

After jiang yuan left us.. now its haidi's turn.. so sad.. so 'thanks' to tt bastard! hate him to the core! Poor haidi.. b4 he leaves, the guys waxed him! omg.. so painful.. they bought the veet thingy.. they paste on his chest and legs.. and then pull.. and *poof* the hair came out! SO PAINFUL! But they had fun.. the cake tt was ordered from chris girlfriend.. its so nice! Choco cake.. YUM YUM! (too bad tt ling din come and therefore she din get to eat the very nice choco cake) The guys from restaurant.. all trying to make haidi drunk.. so funny.. though they din have any after work program.. it was nice seeing them playing around.. hahahaha.. and it was nice for me to drink some chivas.. hahaha.. chivas plus pepsi light taste quite nice leh.. can try next time.. hehe.

Thanks to those who had always be by my side when i need to talk to someone.. weiling.. huiwen.. caifen.. thank you very much. Ling.. sorry to have made u worried on sat.. haha.. im nt drunk.. but i really lost my watch.. though is lost for a few hours only la.. haha.. i will not be blur next time le.

Huiwen.. work hard for 'o' levels.. ok? 2 more weeks and we sing k together le!
Caifen.. u oso work hard for 'o' levels.. dun overtired urself.. ok?
Ling.. u better take care of ur health! be good and stay at home for more rest.. ok? pls dun get me A grade from korea.. i dun need A grade.. i need the real thing more.. hahaha.. but u can get some for urself.. hehe.

Drinking makes me feel sad.. haix.. after so many days.. i finally teared.. and since sat nite.. i've been having the feeling to cry.. i dunno why.. im not suppose to be sad.. and i think im not sad.. but i just do not know why my tears would drop and roll down my cheeks.. I feel so uncomfortable with you being so formal to me this morning.. maybe its regret tt i feel.. i dunno. I just wanna tell u that though u are no longer my priority.. that does not mean that u meant nth to me.. it just that all the other closer friends are in the same 'rank' as u.. i still treasure u.. and i treasure the rest as much as i tresure you at the same time.

Wee~ Went to town again for some shopping.. bought materials for ling's key chain and im happy.. coz i've got a new laptop bag for my new laptop! Thx lijun for tt present! hehe.. and also thanks ling for helping to choose the accessory that is suppose to hang on my laptop bag. :)

Went to big o's but din get to eat waffle.. but at least i get to eat the cod fillet! hehe.. so sad that zihui couldn't join us for shopping after that.. coz she made huda angry wor.. lol.. zihui this kuku. Shall not comment much about that.

Sometimes i really wonder.. why must everybody get so upset about all these things? So much tears shed for all these still not enough? Now i'm fine with this and u all are not? Why are u all still sort of quarrelling? I've gt no idea.. all i wanted is everybody to be happy.. but things does not seems to be turning out that way. It seemed like i've got out of this and u all are not. Why must we get so upset about all these? haix.. i really wonder..

Now listening to 987.. It is now playing:

THE REASON by HOOBASTANK

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear
I've found a resaon for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Ytd, 16/10/07 was a happy day! coz i went shopping! wahaha.. bought things tt i've wanted to buy long long time ago! Crumpler bagpack, Agnes B key ring and hp charm.. im loving them! wee~ Shopped for my fav things really made my day! hehe.. thx ling for acc me..

Today my lover came to sch with her xiao pang to crash our lect! wee~ so happy to see her.. everything was alright.. till in the evening.. haix.. to u.. i really dunno wat to do.. buy u $5 things, u dun use.. buy u $50 things, use a few mth then nv use.. buy u $1000 things.. i also dun see u use.. im v disappointed.. nt angry.. but disappointed.. there's so much things tt i wanna buy for myself.. and i forgo everything tt i want and tried my very best to give you the best.. and wat do i get.. things i bought.. u jus chuck it aside.. so i guess.. if u are really getting a wallet this x'mas.. i guess the wallet tt i gave u which actually made u so touched.. u will jus chuck it aside too.. So pointless of me to buy u things.. so pointless nw.. coz things tt other ppl buy for u.. i see u use it.. things i buy.. u nv use them.. haix.. i guess u will nv know how sad i will be when i see things tt i buy for u.. u nv use them.. its not about the amount i spent.. it about the thought frm me to buy u things.. and seeing u nt using them.. just made me feel so nt appreciated.. maybe u dun use them coz u think they are ugly... i dunno.. and i wanna noe..

Nw thinking back.. its dumb for me to shed tears jus nw.. maybe.. its jus so disappointing for me.. i hate it.. i hate myself for being this way.. i jus wanna be friendly with everyone.. is it so difficult? i dunno.. im clueless..

WOW! Its been sooooooooooo long already.. ahahhaa.. as usual.. im lazy lo.. wat to do.. hahaha..

Anyways.. its been a tiring 7 weeks.. coz im having attachment.. and still im working during weekends and also some weekdays.. really din get enough sleep.. haix.. tired! but no choice.. i need money la.. if nt how to buy my LV.. rite? hahaha

Other than feeling tired, happy, sad and anger are also filling me in these 7 weeks.. Happy that i enjoyed my company in oph.. all oph peeps made my day worth it.. understanding manager, helpful colleagues.. wat else could i asked for.. I LOVE ALL THE 38 SESSIONS WITH MY DARLINGS! I've been missing out so much for past few mths as i was wrking in sentosa.. but still wrking in sentosa is still as gd.. coz my company there oso very fun! hehe.. all the crazy moments with sentosa peeps made my day too! I believe there will be more crazy moments to come! Wee~
I guess, sad and anger.. there is only one person who have made me feel this way for now..

Been spending alot of money lately.. this is bad.. coz im going to spent more tml! What makes it worse is that i had not return my mum and bro! This is bad! argh.. This also means tt i gotta work and work for the sake of my own expenses again.. need to work hard.. so i can buy my LV card holder.. need a new card holder le.. maybe.. i wanna change wallet oso.. hehe. Shall see how much i am able to save first.. coz i need to save up for HK trip.. aaaaaaaahhhhhhh.. this is bad! Money money money.. like i said.. my attachment pay is nt enough for me to spent.. damn.. haha.

I really dunno wat had hapened, maybe, i've asked too much from you, expected too much frm you.. and tt's why we are now like this.. Drifted apart. But still, i give in my v best to plan for ur bdae, hope u were happy on tt day. Happy moments don't last.. so i hope u appreciated those moments. I may not be able to do all these for u already, coz u have other friends beside u to do as much as i could do for u and maybe much more than i could do for u. Enjoy ur company with other friends.. ok? treasure them.. dun lose them like how i lose you.. but i noe u wun lose them and u will treasure them too. I'm sorry that i always make you angry, i am nv understanding enough and only till now.. then i know i din understand u at all.. i nv know wat u like except for lv.. dunno ur taste in fashion.. I'm sorry. Maybe, right now.. i should just take my leave.. stay away frm ur personal live.. coz i can't stay away from u due to sch. U are still v impt to me, but its nt worth for u to have me this friend who always made you angry, fight with you over the least impt things ever. Just because you are impt, to me, Nth worth more than ur smile.. so keep smiling.. ok?