Bitter Sweet Symphony

first date say tt i need to update my blog.. so.. i came.. haha

anyways.. sch wasn't alright these few days.. i get lots of bullshit.. argh.. and i am tahan-ing.. i'm nt sure when all these bullshits will stop.. i hope it will be real soon.. sch wasn't alright.. things aren't going right at home too.. i'm getting bullshits and nonsense at home too.. wat a life i'm living.. but.. its my life.. i gotta live it..

b4 i came to blog.. i went to read some of my juniors blog.. all of them are in JC now.. glad to see them doing well with their own things now.. i miss them.. i miss the crazy times with them.. i miss the times tt i'm so engaged in cca.. and got onli a little for friends.. those was the times tt i'm friendship troubled-free.. i hate what i have now.. i regretted getting in to this course.. though i've meet good friends.. but i regretted being in the same class as hui.. its nt as good as all of u think.. being in the same class with ur best fren..there are pros and cons.. u sees her practically everyday.. u worked with her.. study with her.. omg.. i dun even noe.. what's the feeling of being missed by a fren.. and missing a fren.. everybody moved on.. but nt me.. i still miss my sec sch times badly.. the main reason being.. i am much more happier tt time compare to now..

i've tried to be a good fren.. tried to give in.. tried to be there for u.. tried to be understanding.. i dun expect returns from u.. but.. why can't u treat me better.. like.. at least care about my feeling?? at least care for me a little more.. is it too much?? i dunno.. u said u i'm ur best buddy.. so is this how u treat ur best buddy?? i'm starting to lose confident in this friendship.. i wish to drift apart from u.. i wish tt i can dun care about u since this is how u are treating me.. i wish tt u could read this entry.. and nt get angry.. but do some reflection.. i reflected on myself too much.. i think its time for u to do some reflection.. if u dun need me anymore.. tell me straight into my face.. and i'll stay away.. coz i noe.. its easy for u to find another new best buddy.. u say tat i dunno wat close friends are for.. is not that i dunno.. i noe wat they are for.. it was u.. it was u who make me think tt u dun need me as ur close fren.. u dun care about me and it was u.. who make me wanna let go and stay away from this friendship.. if u really got to read this entry.. u may feel disappointed.. maybe not.. but.. u juz dunno how much disappointment u had brought me..

this entry is so contradicting to my blog skin.. but i think.. tt's the irony part of friendship..

i just want to be the happy person i am last time.. that's all i'm asking for..

Thursday, May 25, 2006

woke up at 12.21 today.. sleep for about 8hrs onli.. haiz.. think i'll be freaking tired later during work ba.. hmm..

bro is so lazy lo.. he is hungry.. but dun wanna go down buy lunch.. he wanted me to buy lunch for him.. he so asshole la.. haha.. after multiple attempts to ask me help him buy lunch but failed.. finally.. he is willing to go and buy lunch himself.. haha.. coz he cannot tahan le.. he is too hungry le.. haha..

did a little bit of homework just now.. pym and popular culture.. haha.. i had finally become so guai and do my homework.. yeah.. at least there's a little improvement.. haha.. wee~

gotta go work later.. ling nv work.. means i'll miss her.. coz nobody to entertain me.. hui dun really entertain during work.. as for shan ma.. hmm.. we always nt at the same station.. she in malaysia.. me in singapore.. hmm.. bored.. hopefully.. i dun get to partner with cheng liang again.. hope arthur will give me a new partner.. but hopefully.. nt someone who can't work and make me more tired.. pls pray hard for me..

Sunday, May 21, 2006

Finally came to update.. haha..

Been very busy and tired for the past week.. worked.. went out with jun.. ting and hui.. then work and work and work.. haha.. but.. i'm still broke.. dunno why oso.. haha..

Working tml oso.. argh.. so tired and bored lo.. work work work.. sianzz.. work just for the sake of money.. haiz.. so pathetic..

Haven seen ling for so many days man.. omg.. i'm missing her.. haha.. shan.. just saw u today wor.. so dun say i nv miss u.. ok?? haha..

Hmm.. haven been blogging for past one week.. should have alot of things to write.. but.. it seems like i dunno wat to blog leh.. haha.. hmm..

am i thinking too much again?? hmm.. i'm nt sure.. am i really ur best fren?? i dunno.. i'm starting to doubt myself.. i dunno wat to say.. wat to do.. maybe i'm just not worth to be ur best fren.. maybe i'm just not worth to be anybody's best fren.. maybe.. i should just be frenless and be alone all by myself.. maybe.. i dunno..

Tuesday, May 16, 2006

blogged again?? haha.. finally.. hee

i'm bored.. so bored.. hmm.. have been working since during sat and sun.. nt very tiring.. but.. i feel tired.. haiz.. worked just for the sake of money.. felt no passion for work at all.. i see no point in working at all.. haiz.. its just so saddening.. i dun really enjoy work now.. not at all.. this is getting worse.. argh..

hmm.. guess wat.. someone just called my hp.. and asked for somebody called jas.. haha.. but the person was polite enough to say bye bye to me.. haha..

hmm.. till here.. i shall update again..

Monday, May 08, 2006

Argh.. was late for lesson today.. shit man.. luckily tutor nv mark me absent.. it was all the rain's fault.. it was the rain's that caused the traffic jam.. argh.. wat the hell..

hmm.. read june's blog.. omg.. i lovesd the ipanema sandals tt was on giselle is wearing.. its so nice.. i must get tt.. hee.. it's time to start saving already.. ling' b'dae coming.. might be going for the study trip to genting.. then after that will be hui's b'dae.. then shan's.. then x'mas.. omg.. money is all i need now.. so.. i gotta work work work.. save save save.. and then spent spent spent.. whahaha..

till here.. i shall blog again.. :)

Friday, May 05, 2006

whahaha.. finally came to update.. hee.. been too busy to blog la.. haha.. too many things to do.. hee..

Hmm.. went to have a haircut at chapter 2.. hee.. changed my parting.. finally.. hee.. whahaha.. hmm.. everybody has been asking me to rebond my hair.. hmm.. should i?? i wanna dye my hair too.. hee.. but.. no money.. muz rebond.. muz dye.. so much $$$ leh.. haha.. i shall save up and rebond first.. alright? dun worry palz.. i'll rebond.. it's juz the matter of time.. haha..

let me see.. anything to update still?? hmm.. think tt's all for today ba.. haha.. shall blog again.. hee.. :)

Thursday, May 04, 2006