Just logged off msn.. now watching cartoon.. hee.. story of mcdull.. hee.. always wanted to watch that cartoon.. hee..
Went to Pasir ris.. my aunt's house is there.. went there for only one reason.. mahjong!! haha.. Parents meeting my aunts for mahjong session.. Played with my little nephew.. he is SO cute.. i mean adorable.. hee.. Guess today is his unlucky day.. so poor thing.. his head got bumped on the floor.. by his brother.. on the corner of the table and by my cousin in law.. cried so many times.. poor baby.. Guess he his sleeping soundly now at home.. haha..
Eversince the day that i promised myself to be good.. promised myself to treasure my best buddy.. i'm happier in some ways and unhappier in some other ways.. and i am always doing some self reflection..
but sometimes.. all i am asking for is just a simple reply from you.. but most of the time.. you never did.. you no longer treat me the way you used to.. i believe you've changed.. and i know very well that he is much more improtant to you than me.. i've accpeted all these facts.. i know i can no longer demand things from you.. i remember you saying that you never know why i like to compare.. compare things with the past. Yes.. i like to compare.. but you don't expect me to compare things with the future.. and i don't understand.. why can't you treat me the same like last time.. i feel so much closer to you compare to now.. i've become so polite to you.. you like that?? Do you still feel close to me?? Now.. i'm just like the other closer friends to you.. that's not how you treat me last time.. till now.. i still dote on you so much.. and i believe.. none of the other friends treats you this way.. things changed.. you've changed.. i've changed.. think you wouldn't feel sad if lose me.. have no idea what you are thinking.. and also no idea what the hell am i thinking.. you mean so much to me.. but.. do i mean as much to you?? have no idea.. no idea at all.. i know you never like to read blogs.. that's why i'm writing it here.. so u won't read it.. however.. guess this will soon become an email to be sent to you.. promised u so many things.. but i only managed to fulfil some.. anyways.. i pray to god that you will have a safe journey.. bon voyage.. will miss u alot because i will only get to see you on this coming sunday.. 